Well, there’s a feeling in the air
Just like a Friday afternoon.
Yeah, you can go there if you want
Though it fades too soon.
So go on, let it be.
If there’s a feeling coming over me,
Seems like it’s always understood this time of year.
-Better Than Ezra
There is a time every year, where I sit and refelect more than I do any other time of year. It happens to be around the holidays, though it wasn’t planned that way. It just happened that way.
Have you ever lost someone close to you, and it turned your entire world upside down? Five years ago my Gramsbear passed away. It was sudden, unexpected and I wasn’t with her. No one was with her except a nurse in a hospital room. And I still have a lump in my throat. 5 years later.
She is in everything that I do. Everything that I strive for. Because she would have wanted us to just be happy.
I am sad that she didn’t get to meet Mason. I still, have the urge to pick up the phone and dial her number when something amazing happens. Instead, I just talk to her out loud in the kitchen, while making breakfast, or while folding laundry.
I miss her. I really do.
Well, this wasn’t meant to make anyone sad. And I rarely make any personal posts here. But I love my Grams, and I wanted her to a part of this wonderful life I have made.
So here are some cute pics of Mr. Mason.. hanging out in his jams.. eating cookies. lol
Much love to you all
-Me
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December 16, 2008 at 7:14 am
Heather
Hugs Mama!!
December 18, 2008 at 10:35 am
Amy
I think this blog was very sweet and straight from the heart. I know that you said you normally don’t use this blog site for things like this but I really feel like It was needed. Not for everyone else, but for you! I think everyone can connect with how you’re feeling. We all have those special people we’ve lost. We all have that hunger during the holidays to have those people with us, to be a part of our family traditions, to see our new additions to the family, to watch our children grow, and to see what kind of family we’ve grown to become. I think what you’ve written was really sweet and I know that your Gramsbear is very proud of you and Rob both for becoming such successful people. Not to mention the fact that you are both amazing, honest, loving, fun, parents. Just remember….Our Loved Ones Never Really Leave In Spirit, They Just Leave Behind The Body They Once Lived In. The Body We Knew And Recognized Best. Your Gramsbear is watching over you and your family and she sees the things you’ve done and the person you’ve become! Don’t worry Chev, she hears you and is speaking back to you in ways you just don’t realize. We love you!